Well, That Was Terrifying

I’ve done a lot of scary things in the past week:

– talked to my doctor about my anxiety
– made an appointment to see a counselor
– told Jedi when I thought he wasn’t being fair to me

and, today, I quit my job. Well, gave my notice. My last day is the 15th.

And you know what? The first three things turned out alright.

Fingers crossed that the last one will, too.

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A Somewhat Update

I’m feeling a lot like a grown-up right now.

I just met with my financial advisor, diversified my investments, and got approved for a fairly sizable mortgage. On Wednesday, I’m going to do walk-throughs on a couple houses I’m interested in. I just filed my taxes, and thanks to the donations and RRSP contributions I made last year, I got enough back to guarantee that I will be able to completely pay for my daughter’s schooling next year without my parents chipping in.

This is so… foreign. I’m used to struggling. I’m used to scrimping and saving and barely getting by. It feels fantastic to finally be on my feet.

It also feels fantastic to know that at this time tomorrow, I’ll be arriving in Vancouver for the start of a super-awesome girls’ weekend with my BFF. Shopping, fancy vegan noms, a ritzy hotel, coffee with a friend I haven’t seen in ten years, and seeing one of my favourite bands ever… it’s going to be amazing.

I really thought I had more to say than this, but I guess not.  Nerd joke? Nerd joke.

Daily Promises

I received and email from a colleague this morning and it really made me think.

I’m often guilty of rushing through the day, trying to get everything done, trying to please everyone, trying to make everything appear perfect. The result is that I feel I have done nothing for myself and I end up irritated, depressed and unfulfilled. So now, I am going to consciously make these 13 promises to myself every day, in an effort for more mindful and motivated living.

 

1. Creativity

Today I will make something new and different and thereby change the world for the better.

 

2. Resourcefulness

Today I will become strong by overcoming obstacles with persistence and flexibility.

 

3. Enthusiasm

Today I will permit myself to become excited in anticipation of whatever might happen.

 

4. Perceptiveness 

Today I will look beyond my preconceptions to see the truths that I missed before.

 

5. Appreciation

Today I will remember the miracle of conscious existence, which is all too soon over.

 

6. Sensitivity

Today I will remain aware of the emotions of others and how they interact with my own.

 

7. Relaxation

Today I will spend at least one hour doing something that’s just because I enjoy it.

 

8. Happiness

Today I will do my best to remain happy, regardless of the circumstances of the hour.

 

9. Power

Today, I will use some of whatever power I possess in the service and for the welfare of others.

 

10. Health 

Today, I will take action to ensure that I’m in better health than I was yesterday or the day before.

 

11. Wonder

Today I will sit back and marvel at the unexpected, without which life would be boring.

 

12. Playfulness

Today I will express, at least once, the joy of the child who still lives inside me.

 

13. Gratitude

Today I will be thankful for all the wonderful things in my life: my family, my friends and, yes, my work.