Friday Five – July 5th, 2013

This week’s Friday Five:


  1. What song, album, or artist, disliked by you in high school, now sounds pretty good? I honestly can’t think of any. My musical taste has always been really eclectic, and hasn’t changed much.
  2. What specific high-school memory do you have of discovering some song, album, or artist you considered old? I grew up on “old” music… but the boy I was head over heels for in Grade 12 made me look at Led Zeppelin IV in a completely different manner.
  3. What song or album best serves as the soundtrack for your senior year of high school? (bonus challenge: answer this question with a different song or album for each year of high school!) Grade Eight: Americana – The Offspring      Grade Nine: Hello Nasty – The Beastie Boys      Grade Ten: Issues – KoRn      Grade Eleven: Selftitled – Slipknot       Grade Twelve: … And Out Come The Wolves – Rancid
  4. What’s a song, album, or artist from your high-school years you loved then (and might still love) but have great difficulty listening to now, and what’s the reason? “Stairway To Heaven” hits especially hard… the loss of first real love and memories of The One That Got Away are forever entangled in the lyrics of that song.
  5. What song, album, or artist from your high-school years, seemingly forgotten nowadays, do you still listen to with fondness? I’m not sure if No Use For A Name is considered “seemingly forgotten,” but “For Fiona” always makes my heart swell with happiness.

Sanity Is A Full-Time Job

It finally happened. The Bad Religion concert/girls weekend I’ve been pumped for for months.

Bestie and I got up super-early Saturday morning. Coffee was a must.

We drove to the ferry and set sail away from beautiful Vancouver Island.

We got to Vancouver early, so we did some shopping, had lunch with friends and checked out the venue.

Then it was time to check into our hotel room. We had a beautiful suite on the 31st floor.

The view was amazing!!!

Pretty soon, it was time to go to the show. We saw all sorts of interesting places and sights along the way

When we got to the venue, we had to wait in line for quite awhile…

But getting a spot right at the front was worth it, especially with Polar Bear Club as an opener!

The Bronx was a band neither of us had heard of before, but they sounded fantastic.

Then it was time for Bad Religion and some serious moshing!

I may have gotten a few injuries.

Our view was just as pretty when we got home at 1am.

After a brief sleep, it was time for more coffee (with misspelled names),

some exploration of downtown,

and a fabulous vegan lunch!

Before we knew it, it was time to catch the ferry home.

All in all, it was a fantastic weekend!

It’s Not Easy.

It isn’t easy to love an addict.
It isn’t easy to hear the lies, to know that they’re lies, and to not be able to do a damn thing about it.
It isn’t easy to watch someone you love so hell-bent on self-destruction.
It isn’t easy to hear “I’m getting clean” again and again and to pray every. single. time. that this time, it’s for good.
It isn’t easy to have someone you love steal from you with seemingly no remorse.
It isn’t easy when they sober up temporarily and you see the shame in their eyes, see the weight of their sins dragging them back down into a vortex of self-medication and self-loathing.
It isn’t easy to see them desperately searching for the next $20, the next fix, the next party.
It isn’t easy to realise you can’t remember the last time they weren’t using.
It isn’t easy when you figure out that the only way to preserve yourself is to distance yourself from their battle, to support and love from afar, because getting too close hurts too much.
It isn’t easy to keep your distance, to stop loaning money, to stop enabling.
It isn’t easy not trying to fix the situation, to fix the addiction, to fix the person.
It isn’t easy to watch someone so young and promising throw their future away.
It isn’t easy to understand why they can’t “just” stop, can’t “just” get it together, can’t “just” get clean.
It isn’t easy to live each day of their sobriety along with them, fearing a relapse.
It isn’t easy. Not even in the slightest.
But an addict knowing that someone loves them no matter what… that’s what makes it worthwhile.

I’ve loved a lot of addicts. Some I’m still loving from afar. One helped make my child. Two I’ve known since they were born. One will hit 15 months clean this week. In fact, he’s the one I have to thank for introducing me to Macklemore’s “ Starting Over.” I’ve listened to this song probably 30 times since I first heard it last night. Every time, it gives me goosebumps and nearly brings me to tears.

The part that really sticks with me are the lines:

If I can be an example of getting sober
Then I can be an example of starting over.

Brother, I love you. I’m proud of you, of who you’ve become, and how far you have come in the past year and a bit. Never quit fighting because I know you can do this.

The Past Three Weeks (A Photo Recap)

The last few weeks have flown by and I seem to have neglected this blog. Crazy, right? So in the interests of staying up to speed, a quick recap:

In late February, I traveled out of town for work. I spent three days in a gorgeous hotel room with an amazing view of the harbour,

working in a super-quiet yard,

watching my newest addiction (The Vampire Diaries),

pampering myself every night,

waking up to beautiful sunrises,

and missing Baby Girl like crazy. I even missed 80’s day at her school. 😦

It was the longest I had ever been away from her, and I was so happy to get home to her and kitty!

On March 1st, I got to go out (on my own)!

I saw one of my favourite ska bands, The Slackers, and skanked myself crazy.

I even met a cute guy. We danced all night and traded numbers but….

It wasn’t meant to be.

I got progressively more addicted to TVD,

went to Student-Led Conferences at Kiddo’s school,

and, after being patronised and treated with disdain, cut off all contact with McFly.

I took Kiddo to a birthday party,

bought some really cool stuff (including a Michael Kors blazer for $5!!!),

and started feeling really, really good about myself.

AND, I did it all while quitting smoking. Tomorrow will be two weeks cig-free.

I can’t wait to see what the next few weeks bring.

Music Monday – January 28th, 2013

Dirty Water
– Real Friends

If you wore your personality on your skin
No one would take a second look
You were shallow when we met and you still are
The water won’t be coming down any time soon to change that
The loneliness keeps me warm at night
And that’s okay with me, I’d rather be alone in this bed made for two
Than listen to you and your judgement

Don’t act like you’re better than me
We’re both fools lost in this cold world
You may not fall as much as I do but if I look close enough
I can find the scars on your knees, I can find the bags under your eyes
That carry too much for you to handle

I’m starting to think that you’re the reason why everyone left
So stop pointing your finger
You don’t even really know me, not at all
You don’t even really know me

Don’t act like you’re better than me
We’re both fools lost in this cold world
You may not fall as much as I do but if I look close enough
I can find the scars on your knees, I can find the bags under your eyes
That carry too much for you to handle

I said I’m selfish, I’m a liar and I’m broken
Shit runs through my head everyday that I would never tell anyone

You’re just like me
The only difference is that I’m honest enough to scream my thoughts
In the lines of this song

It’s a Punk Rock Christmas Eve!

It’s late on Christmas Eve.  The little one’s asleep, Santa has filled the stockings… and Mama is rocking out to some totally badass Christmas tunes.

No joke.

I’m not a big Christmas person, and even less of a Christmas music person. That was until I stumbled across “Season’s Greetings From Lowbrow.”

See… I kinda love punk rock. And these guys do it well. (Which is evidenced on their album “Doing It All Wrong”, in case you dislike festive tunes more than even I do).

Their Christmas EP has made me feel like less of a grinch, which is pretty amazing. Their full-length album is downright amazing. And both are FREE to download. Happy fuckin’ holidays – don’t say I never did anything for you.

But seriously, check these boys out.

And merry Christmas, happy Hanukkah, blessed solstice, happy kwanzaa and any other holiday greetings I may have missed!